Church Today

I went to church today. I was very amazed by the message. I wrote the earlier posting Saturday night. The lesson today was about Fear... WOW! Basically Pastor Said if you focus on your fears you will go right for them. Focus on your dreams. That Fear is the reverse of Faith. Faith in your self or your God. If you have fear that means you have opportunity for faith. I am not doing this service any justice. As I sat in this service I cried. I felt the sprit talking to me. I felt like I needed to be there. I am glad i believe. I am glad I have faith. I am glad i know that sometimes my fear is just my faith coming out. I am glad that I know where I belong and am not afraid of getting there. I have faith that i will get there. The mind is a powerful thing once set in motion. Use it! Stretch it out! Remember a baby never learns to walk if you are over protective of their fall. You have to not be fearful of your growth. You can not be over protective of your growth or your loved ones growth. No matter what your growth is learning to speak a new language or learning to walk a new path for you r life do not be in fear of the fall but have faith in your success.

Sometime I will just ramble out my thoughts... so if you think wow she is crazy... I am!

Okay today was an amazing day. I got to see a 13 year old boy realize my action will cause pain to others. I will make another decision.
I got to see my two year old son upset that his baby brother was upset.
I got to see my two year old try to act like a grown man. He wanted to hold the door open for his mama.
I saw the way this world can wrap it self in a beautiful white coat and say look at my beauty once again as clean as can be.
I got to cry and hear from a brother and sister in Christ that they love me!
I got to show two 13 year old boys that faith is stronger then fear.
I got to enjoy the company of a close friend.
I got to talk to two of my best friends on the phone.
I got to get a kiss from my baby boys.
Wow I am blessed. I may not have any money or a roof of my own but I am blessed with all the love and faith I have.

I am really not trying to be mushy but I am feeling all these things.
I also feel a little pissed that I am where I am in life... Where is that?
someday I will look back at these days and say the hard times... not that bad.



Okay I am done rambling. Talk to you all later.